Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Sacrifise: its not sacrifice

Edits: When i wrote this, I wrote the spelling wrong. But today, when I look back, sacrifise as an heading makes more sense than sacrifice. This article focuses on the ritual killings of the dreams of the younger generation at the behest of ambitious insecured parents, on the ritual killing of a man's freedom on the behest of whimsical wishes of counterparts and other stakeholders.

The old article: It has been long yet again since i've written.. Today was just thinking about sacrifice and its importance in society.. how did the this topic came to my mind?? Just like that had been thinking a lot lately, wats rite, wats wrong, started analysing and here's the analysis.. a lot of us have grown up learning that sacrifices are important, and indeed they are.. We have grown listening to the stories of Rishi Dadhichi and Panna Dhay, both of whom are unparalleled examples of sacrifice in Indian history. Now what troubles me is the interpretation of sacrifice. Just imagine Rishi Dadhichi wud have sacrificed his life because his girlfriend wanted to comb her hair from the comb made from Rishi's bones. Wud the sacrifice have been worth it?? Would you even call it a sacrifice? lemme first put the definiton of sacrifice word to word from dictionary.com, it says "the surrender or destruction of something prized or desirable for the sake of something considered as having a higher or more pressing claim. " Now lets start analysing, Rishi dadhichi sacrifising his life fulfills the first part of the definiton, "the surrender or destruction of something prized or desirable" i.e. his life here. But now lets look at the second part of the difinition, "for the sake of something considered as having a higher or more pressing claim." Does his girlfriend's desire to comb her hair from his bones qualify for a more pressing claim?? Now may be when in the first I said, we have grown up with the stories of Rishi Dadhichi and Panna Dhay, I was wrong, we have rather grown up with the stories of guy sacrifising his safety and risking his own life to fulfil some fancy whim of his gf. We have grown up with the stories where a guy or a gal sacrifices everything for some wishes of their parents, or gf or ne1. Now when I was young, I heard the story of Shravan Kumar, the great son who took his parents sacrifising everything on a pilgrimage. Now lets analyse that scenario. Shravan sacrificed his happiness, his comfort. First part fulfilled. His parents, both blind and very old and lived in times when pilgrimage meant a lot for every old age couple, got the satisfaction of going to the pilgrim and getting the most sorted after thing by them, Moksha. Also it being their last wish gets completed. So does the second part gets fulfilled, yes it does. Coming to present times, Mother and father wants their kid to be CA(:-), Doctor, Engineer and wat not and the kid sacrifices their own interest for their wishes. Analyse again, First part fulfilled, second, no not at all. You are not achieving something having a greater claim. And our parents wud gladly give the example of how Shravan sacrificed everything and u cant even become an engineer for us. Wat a parallel. The framework of sacrifice has been getting spoiled and it has taken a very crooked shape. This is not what sacrifice meant. Sacrifice is always for a more pressing claim, if it is not it is not a sacrifice rather its a foolishness or if I explain in finance, its a Deadweight loss. Can go on writing about it but have to go and have food. Last I'll just quote a few lines from one of my favourite songs, a lil out of place but cud fit in with a lil more extrapolation on the same topic.
kaha chala aye mere jogi, jeewan se tu bhaag ke
kisi ek dil ke karan, yun sari duniya tyaag ke
chhod de sari duniya kisi ke liye
yeh munaasib nahin aadmi ke liye
pyaar se bhi zaroori kayi kam hain
pyaar sab kuchh nahin zindagi ke liye

chand milta nahin sabko sansaar mein
hai diya hi bahut roshni ke liye

ek duniya ujad hi gayi hai to kya
doosra tum jahan kyun basaate nahin

Friday, September 25, 2009

Mr. Shashi Tharoor, u disappointed ur firm believer

I was optimistic to see ppl like Shashi Tharoor at the centre. An educated, experienced global man.. Went on to twitter just to check wat he has to say?? Was disappointed.. The same problem, even he isnt above all this.. First lemme talk abt the problem.. V have state as well as centre govt. working in our country. I never understand the idea how does an MP who is elected at centre have a responsibilty towards his constituency, atleast in his role as an MP?? He is mean to see the centre politics, the issues concerning the country as a whole. But our system had instilled this in our mind tat an MP has a responsibilty towards the ppl who elect him, no. That ways, lets say in an election whr the candidate knows who is voting for whom, 500 ppl voted, 251 voted for one person and remaining 249 voted for another.. So the person who won shud take more care of the ppl who voted for him.. No, a big no.. similarly, even a MP is not supposed to take even a lil more care of his constituecy as his capacity as a MP. and he shud make it clear to the ppl, tat he is not liable to them bt to the nation.. lalu came, started trains from Bihar.. mamta came removed trains from bihar started from bengal. rather they shud be planning trains acc to the overall need of the nation. bt this all mess starts wen ppl go to ask for votes they say, if we win we'll make the constituency prosperous.. no, an mp is not a representative of the constituency at the centre bt the representative of the country.. so v need politicians who cud get above all this and tell public, vote for us if u feel v'll do some gud work at the centre.. our MPs think of themselves as the representative of their ppl(the def. of their ppl is very narrow), and i suppose in tat case v shud not have a Railway miniter for centre bt for each state and let all of them fight among themselves for more trains and more budget.. even if this wud be chaotic, atleast v wud give a fair chance to all states.. now coming back to Mr Tharoor, whom i admire beyond all measures.. was going thru his tweet.. ppl asking questions abt wat he is doing for the tvm constituency.. and he replying and telling them "wat he is doing".. "spoke to Minister Premachandran today. Hope water service is urgently restored in affected areas of Tvm" is his latest tweet, y on earth?? Its like this, imagine with me.. I'm the President of US. I hail from Colaroado. Now thr is a problem of Bureaucracy in the whole of US. The amenities r not proper, and water shortage is thr and electricity is less. and i get a message from a person in Colarado, telling me, Mr President, I'm from ur constituency(or watever they call it thr, not aware abt their system), plz v dont have lights, thr is a water pipe burst, he calls up the concerned minister and tells him to rectify.. the concerned minister does, very obviously.. i dont know how right is the President.. If he do sumthing for Colorado at individual level, tats diff bt if he does as President, i dont appreciate.. Public figures have gr8 responsibilty on their head.. nehow, i tweeted Mr. Shashi without ne hope of a reply.. bt i feel i atleast gotta say wat i want, tat matters or not, is sumthing to be contemplated later.. just waiting for the day, wen i cud reach a status whr wat i say matters.. as i always "i know i'm going to be rich and famous, its just a matter of time" waiting for the time to come..
it'll come soon..

Thursday, September 17, 2009


Wat the fuck^(&*^*(%&(&^
I want to believe in my country, my India, but how could I, with vultures sitting all around me. My peace of mind is disturbed to see the situation around. If I say that this country is to be doomed if we, Indians do not improve, it wont be an exaggeration. Look at the Common Wealth Games. Wat a shame for a country, CFG chief, personally called up the Prime Minister to tell him to intervene in the very slow and unsatisfactory preparations for CWG. We are making 19 structures for the CWG, out of them 13 are running late. It is rediculous. I believe, I'm an escapist, I really wanna leave this God forsaken country and go somewhere else. Bt I really dont know wat is being escapist, running from a falling house or satying in it, 'coz we're comfortable in our house and dont wanna move and take chances. I believe its better and proactive to run away.

I'm fucking irritated.

Bastards, cowards, escapists, scoundrels, i hate these lazy lethargic employees.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Shine on you crazy diamond

I heard the first few lines of this song first time in toast master's meeting at DeeJay's Toastmaster's Club, Bangalore. I was so impressed with the first few lines that I came back home and listened to the whole song, and to my astonishment it is one of the best thing I've ever read and what surprised me is it came from a psychedelic rock band's album and not some great writer. It was the Pink Floyd band's truibute to their founder member Syd Barrett who went into self imposed seclusion. Today I'm qoting these lines very aptly for one of the most important people in my life who is going through not the same but one of the bad phases of his/her life. He/she has talent but is just not sure about it. He/She has accomplished a lot in life but is going through "nah, I'm not so gud" phase. I'll end my words here and let the Floyd take from here.........

Remember when you were young, you shone like the sun.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Now there's a look in your eyes, like black holes in the sky.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
You were caught on the cross fire of childhood and stardom,Blown on the steel breeze.
Come on you target for faraway laughter, come on you stranger,You legend, you martyr, and shine!
You reached for the secret too soon, you cried for the moon.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Treatened by shadows at night, and exposed in the light.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Well you wore out your welcome with random precision,Rode on the steel breeze.
Come on you raver, you seer of visions, come on you painter,You piper, you prisoner, and shine!Nobody knows where you are, how near or how far.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Pile on many more layers and i'll be joining you there.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
And we'll bask in the shadow of yesterday's triumph,And sail on the steel breeze.
Come on you boy child, you winner and loser,Come on you miner for truth and delusion, and shine!

Corpses are more fit to be thrown out than is dung.

Corpses are more fit to be thrown out than is dung. This is a famous quote by Heraclitus, the great Greek philosopher. Now, wat it says is really relevant for a lot of us here. Think of stool, not being thrown out from the body, it would create stench, make one sick and intoxicate the person. Now analyse the situation. The stool was once the food we ate and savoured with so much pleasure. But if we keep thinking about how much we savoured the food, we wont ever be able to get it out. But as the thing goes, now the same thing which was nutritious, life giving and an elixir of life has became an intoxicating, malignant substance. So to remove it is very important to remain in good health. Now as it goes its more important to have a healthy mind than a healthy body. What stool is to body, past is to mind. A lot of time we had savoured a particular thing in the past, enjoyed it and extracted from it elixir of life for the mind. But as it happens, some bad experiences can turn the same thing into a venomous serpant lurking through the senses and making one more prone to injuries. Now, what is important is to throw out this corpse of past life and move on. If we dont throw it out, we wont even know when this venomous serpant will become fatal and take away all the joys of our life from us. As it goes the baggage of past is the toughest to carry. So lets leave it behind and enjoy the presents extended to us by the "present". If we ignore these presents for our past, thr will surely be a day when we will regret missing those presents and will have more baggage to carry eventually. I'll end this here with another quote by the mighty Heraclitus "It would not be better if things happened to people just as they wish."

Tuesday, August 18, 2009


As soon as i'm free, there are a lot of unanswered or rather unanswerable questions which start fogging my mind. The questions like who am i? What is my purpose? Is it to become great? How will it matter if I become or do not become great?

My personal belief is questions like these are the result of an empty mind. We have a very famous saying in Hindi which says "phad phad ke siye jaa". It means if you dont have nething keep tearing apart ur clothes and stitching back. Even doing a worthless work is better than not doing nething. People call me workoholic but the fact is as soon as I'm not doing nething, these questions start troubling me. I hate free time. Unfortunately from a last few days, I had a lot of free time and havnt been feeling gr8 'coz of this.

I'm trying to occupy myself now, lets hope I can come out of this torturous phase.

Pulkit Totla

P.S. I'll start writing gud articles soon.. Just warming up the machinery first..


HI ppl..
Not sure how will this blog thing work, but i believe it shud be gud..
I hope it'll prove as a gud platform for sharing my thots..
Made this back in 07 but tat time was busy with a lot of other things..
Cudnt write..
nehow, now i believe i'll
C u soon with a gud article..
Pulkit Totla